My Memoirs: In God I seek refuge

My Memoirs: In God I seek refuge: I feel confused.....my brain cannot think well....exhausted mind cannot set a concrete plan. At this current status of my career, too ma...

In God I seek refuge

I feel confused.....my brain cannot think well....exhausted mind cannot set a concrete plan.

At this current status of my career, too many questions of why, what and how. Why because, why things happened like this. What because, what I am going to do next. How because, how do I start. 

It never came across to my mind, that I will experience this kind of scenario I am experiencing right now.

I have many plans in the future, but I am currently in this kind of situation where everybody doesn't know where we are heading to.

I want to voice out our rights, but no power to do so. I am afraid to fail, afraid of not fulfilling what has been planned.

I am living my dream, a dream that came into reality. Picturesque crystalline water with pristine white sand. Photographic location that I only see in magazines and books, but now, this is the place where I lived right now.

I always pray but I think my prayer is not enough. I always ask for favors, but I think I ask too much.

I always plan ahead, but I think my plans are lacking of glorifying the name of  the

Lord.

By writing this article, I am releasing my frustrations and let the Holy Spirit directs me what to do.

As I opened my Bible, it says at 1 Thessalonians 5: 23-28

    "23 May the God who gives us peace make you holy in every way and keep your whole being- spirit, soul, and body- free from every fault at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ."

"24 He who calls you will do it, because he is faithful."

"25 Pray also for us, friends."

"26 Greet all the believers with the kiss of peace."

"27 I urge you by the authority of the Lord to read this letter to all the believers."

"28 The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you."

My Memoirs: In Loving Memory

My Memoirs: In Loving Memory: Life is like a newly watered plants in the garden, Fresh in the morning, soon it will be withered. Vibrant color green when it is st...

In Loving Memory

Life is like a newly watered plants in the garden,

Fresh in the morning, soon it will be withered.

Vibrant color green when it is still young,

When the time comes, the leaves will fall.

It will touch the ground, soon it will be gone.

I still miss the childhood days with you,

Your serious face and funny smile.

Only in  memory, I can remember you.

It's too late to say, " I love you".

Why can't I stop these tears?

Why can't I stop blaming myself?

Being selfish for keeping eight long years,

Not asking how are you?

Being affected by this emotion I kept inside,

Thinking always Grandma, instead of you.

If only I can bring back the time

I want to say sorry and  forgive you.

Now you're gone Papang,

How can I read these lines to you?

How can you hear me singing it loud?

Amazing grace, I sing it for you:(

Unforgettable shoot

It was January 5th, when I received a message that I was the chosen photographer  to shoot for these repeater guests in Dhigu, Anantara.  Mr. General Manager and Dhigu Resort  Manager talked to my Site Manager regarding the said session. I was feeling nervous because it is my first time that someone from higher position requested for  a photographer  to handle the said photo shoot.

January 6th, when my mobile alarmed at 6 o'clock in the morning. I prepare myself for any possibilities that might happen during my encounter with the guests. As the sun rises, I plastered my smile as I look at the rising sun.  I walked from Veli Resort straight to Naladhu (good exercise indeed), and called the boat Captain, for my  transfer to Dhigu.

I quickly ate my breakfast. Checked my camera and settings.  I met Resort Manager and the Bodu Beru group.  All of us, went to the guests villa and we were all introduced to the guests.

As I first set my eyes to the Mother and Daughter, my heart beats  rapidly. Silly I am!  The Mother came near to me, to show some poses. We shared ideas about it.  I told her, we will do the same poses and at the same time, I will do other version of those.

As I slowly demonstrate some poses to the daughter,  the Mother looked at me smiling. I smiled back and asked her by doing sign language, if it is okay what I am doing.  She replied back by doing sign language too. To feel comfortable, I always ask my guest if she's fine with the poses. And she positively follow my instructions together with the help of Bodu Beru group.

After the first session with the Bodu Beru group, we walked slowly to another location.  Then, I initiated a short conversation with the Mother (for me to feel at ease). When I popped my first question, she said they are from Spain. Then I spoke  few Spanish words. Then she began to laugh. That is the beginning of our conversation until the last shoot in Veli Resort.

We shifted one location to another.  When the Father came, I talked to my guests to let me finish the shoot for that particular location while ideas are still fresh on my mind. Then the  shoot resumes at  11 o'clock. While doing a solo shoot with the daughter, I popped question again.  Just for her to enjoy the shoot despite a very warm weather.

After three and a half hour of  photo shoot, we bid goodbye and exchanged "thank you".  As remarkable comment from the Mother, "I like your ideas!"  I politely replied with big smile and saying my wholeheartedly thanks to her.  As her response, " De Nada".

Below are some of the photographs taken in three different resorts.

took  4 times to retake this shot

the final pose

My Memoirs: The taste of the past

My Memoirs: The taste of the past:  As we welcome Year of the Sheep,  we look back at year 2014. There are hesitations and regrets from the past which cannot be undone anymo...

The taste of the past

 As we welcome Year of the Sheep,  we look back at year 2014. There are hesitations and regrets from the past which cannot be undone anymore. There are "what if" and "if only" sort of possibilities  playing in our minds. As long as we are still breathing and kicking, we can make the best out of it.

Here comes another year to start another race.  A year to look forward to finish pending works.  I am thankful of all the blessings I received from the past year.  Single word is not enough how to describe the feeling of,  when you served as a blessing for other people.  The feeling when you see their genuine smile as you lend your helping hand.

People come and go. Some will stay through thick and thin. Others will leave you soon. Some will mock at you, some will betray you,  and others will stay faithful whether you are at your worst or best mood.

One day is over for 2015, and tomorrow the sun will shine again.  I am not sure where I am heading to, but with the guidance of the Holy Spirit and Almighty God,  it brings back my confidence as I land my step from the very first day of this year. I do believe, if it is really meant for you, it will be for you.

The wheel of life continuously rolling. It is only us who direct our lives according to our own free will. 

Photos included were taken in different Island Resorts in Maldives.
Photographed by: "yours truly"